2016 left us soooo fast and I cannot believe it’s 2017. I promised myself that I wanted to document more of my life in this space so here is my first attempt for the year 2017.
So Andrew and I have decided that this is the year we try to have a baby. Actually I’m lying because we tried for a few months last year and had no luck. I finally went to the OB/GYN for a pap smear and some routine check up. During the trans v checkup – She noticed that my one of fallopian tube was swollen and she was worried that it would be blocked. So we scheduled an HSG test ( This shows whether the fallopian tubes are open or blocked by injecting some dye nto the uterine cavity through the vagina and cervix ) Sadly my doctor informed me that both of my tubes were blocked and my chances of getting pregnant on my own was pretty slim to none.
I remember sitting sitting in the doctors office fighting back tears and one thought going through my head -” I will never become a mother.”
When I finally calmed myself down I listened to my options.
A. I could have a laparoscopy which is an operation to remove a part of the fallopian tube but my doctor warned me that even if the surgery is successful it is possible for the tubes to get blocked again or
B. I can get IVF at Kato Repro Biotech Center
I was too emotional to think properly so I just nodded and left the clinic as soon as I could. I remember sitting in the car in the hospital parking lot and just completely bawling my eyes out. My heart was broken for the kids I will never have. Andrew comforted me the best way he can ( God bless his heart) but honestly I never felt more alone than I did then. The rest of the day was pretty blurry. I stayed home the next day and pretty much cried the whole day. I know it’s not healthy or productive but I pretty much wallowed in my sadness for the next 3 days.
Finally I had enough of the self pity and decided to go over my options. I talked to Andrew, my friends and parents and I decided that I wanted to give IVF a try. Almost everyone I know ( including myself) knows someone who has gone through IVF and they all have babies now.
And so we begin the long process..