I need to be better at documenting this whole IVF experience. One day I know I will look back and be thankful to have gone through this whole process. I figured it would also be helpful to others who are considering assisted reproduction. Also I can show my future kids how much I had to go through for them. LOL
Andrew and I went to our first consultation with Dr. Mendiola of Kato Repro Biotech Center- an IVF center here in Manila. The meeting was short but it went very well. We left feeling confident and very well informed. I was given provera pills and Andrew was given instructions to abstain for his semem analysis on our next visit.
I finally finished my 10 days of Provera (a type of female hormone similar to the progesterone that your body naturally makes and is given to replace the hormone when your body is not making enough of it) that my doctor prescribed for me. Hallelujah ! I really hate that drug. It made me breakout ( think cystic and painful acne) suppressed my appetite, made me very emotional and very mean ( Andrew can attest to this haha)
Now I need to wait for my period to start then I go back to my doctor and we start follicle and endometrium tracking. I am dreading this check up because it’s a trans vaginal ultrasound during my second day of period. I’ve done this before with a female OB but my IVF doctor is a man and I just can’t. WAHHHHH I know I know I need to stop being a baby and just push through haha! For those wondering they need to do this on the second day of my period — They do it to check the ovaries and measure the thickness of the lining and make sure everything is as it should be at that point in your cycle. They should be doing blood work too to verify hormone levels. Of course Andrew is not off the hook. He goes in for a semen analysis. Praying that his little swimmers are top notch! He’s been taking some supplements like multi-vitamins, vitamin c, zinc and selenium. He was taking gingko biloba for a while too but I didn’t buy a new bottle when he ran out.
My period finally came in 7 days after my last Provera pill.I went it for a follicle and endometrium tracking. The nurse took 5 vials of blood from me. My blood tests all came back normal thank God!
I also went in for a trans v on my second day of period which is probably the most mortifying thing in the world. Imagine bleeding heavily while the doctor waving some wand in your lady bits. Doctor Mendiola said that I have 5 follicles on my left ovaries and “some” follicles on my right. This is a good thing but he gave me some medication -Femara and Clomid and started Gonal F injections ( 300 UI- 100 per day for 3 days)- This is basically a follicle stimulating hormone (FSH) that stimulates the development of ovarian follicles in order to produce more eggs. In IVF the more eggs the merrier!
I was worried that I would mess up using the Gonal F pen but thank goodness it’s really easy to use and pretty much painless. They say if you’re afraid of needles IVF will either make or break you. Thank you Lord I’m not afraid of needles or blood. ( my own anyways) And I like to think my pain tolerance is pretty high.
Went in for an ultrasound – Dr. Mendiola this time …DIES. I knowwwww I need to grow up right? Hahaha. But seriously, does this ever get less mortifying? LOL The ultrasound shows that both ovaries have follicles and is growing. But not fast enough.The biggest one is currently 9.5mm and I was informed that for IVF it should be at least 17mm.
Sooooo he prescribed me more meds and another round of injections. Menagon this time, with legit syringes too 😦 The first shot was administered at the clinic but i’d have to do it myself for the net two days. Wish me luck!!!
2016 left us soooo fast and I cannot believe it’s 2017. I promised myself that I wanted to document more of my life in this space so here is my first attempt for the year 2017.
So Andrew and I have decided that this is the year we try to have a baby. Actually I’m lying because we tried for a few months last year and had no luck. I finally went to the OB/GYN for a pap smear and some routine check up. During the trans v checkup – She noticed that my one of fallopian tube was swollen and she was worried that it would be blocked. So we scheduled an HSG test ( This shows whether the fallopian tubes are open or blocked by injecting some dye nto the uterine cavity through the vagina and cervix ) Sadly my doctor informed me that both of my tubes were blocked and my chances of getting pregnant on my own was pretty slim to none.
I remember sitting sitting in the doctors office fighting back tears and one thought going through my head -” I will never become a mother.”
When I finally calmed myself down I listened to my options.
A. I could have a laparoscopy which is an operation to remove a part of the fallopian tube but my doctor warned me that even if the surgery is successful it is possible for the tubes to get blocked again or
B. I can get IVF at Kato Repro Biotech Center
I was too emotional to think properly so I just nodded and left the clinic as soon as I could. I remember sitting in the car in the hospital parking lot and just completely bawling my eyes out. My heart was broken for the kids I will never have. Andrew comforted me the best way he can ( God bless his heart) but honestly I never felt more alone than I did then. The rest of the day was pretty blurry. I stayed home the next day and pretty much cried the whole day. I know it’s not healthy or productive but I pretty much wallowed in my sadness for the next 3 days.
Finally I had enough of the self pity and decided to go over my options. I talked to Andrew, my friends and parents and I decided that I wanted to give IVF a try. Almost everyone I know ( including myself) knows someone who has gone through IVF and they all have babies now.
And so we begin the long process..
I really want to get this space up and going but I’m not feeling so inspired lately. I do have some topics in mind for when I’m feeling it.
1. Andrew and I have been trying to get pregnant and to be completely honest we are struggling. We did some test and we have news about my fertility.
2. I am still in love with all things skincare and makeup and I really want to talk more about the old and new products that works for me and also those that unfortunately don’t.
3. I love reading and I really want to write book reviews here. Not just rate them on goodreads. I mean #imeesbookclub is a thing on instagram 😉
4. My mission to be positive. I’ll be the first to admit it – I’m a negative person. I’m always looking at the glass half empty and I never believe people have good intentions. It’s horrible, I know but at least I’m acknowledging this right? I’ll try to write abut my struggles and why I think I’m this way.
5. Travelogues. One of my biggest regrets is not taking enough pictures when I travel and when I do it’s from my iphone ( ugh) I keep in there and never getting them printed or at the very least uploaded. They just get deleted when I get a new phone or when my phone memory is full. UGH. Need to change that bad habit asap.
6. Imee’s Kitchen. I currently have 7,600 followers and I really really want to reach 10,000 by the end of the year. I also want to incorporate recipes here in this blog because I’m really proud of my cooking page ( it has become sort of like my baby) and I want to document it more. But I will definitely wont stop posting on instagram because I love my positive community there.
So yeah. I hate not being able utilize this blog as much as I want to but I’m really hoping to get back into the swing of things. See you soon!